Brand new day. Brand new life.

I am so tired. My biggest dream for now is to give up with this mire in my head, with this mess in my heart.
It feels like I have a seasickness and I can not go ashore. My ship is swinging on the waves all the time.
I wish to wait for a calm.
I wish to forget all my weaknesses and fears and one day wake up and realize that I'm totally alive, and there  are no reasons to bury myseld alive.

"Lead me to you, O God, along the smoothest road"

Ameen.